Day Five

First call, the vet stated that it looks like cancer and little hope--made playing therapist the remainder of the day almost impossible. She called again, later and said that she had sent the test results to a vet that deals specifically with ferrets (in another time zone, no less) and we are now waiting to hear their opinion, as well. Not looking good, either way. She is tolerating lots of cuddle time and still taking the Nutri-Cal, so that is how we have been spending most of our time together.  I am admittedly feeling horrible guilt that she is probably never going to be able to play with all of the awesome Christmas stuff that I bought for them. Not sure how Roo would handle losing a third ferret in a matter of months. I know I am not coping well with the idea.  On the bright side, if she pulls through, this has been incredible bonding time that we have shared these past few days.

 

I realize that nothing in life comes with a guarantee. All life, be it human or animal can be snuffed out at anytime and no matter when the end occurs, it is always too soon. I guess it is a reminder for me, not to wait on gifts--even the few weeks wait until Christmas ensured that Joey is not likely to ever enjoy the new toys. Christmas is going to very tight, this year, due to other factors--we aren't even sure when it will occur in our house. My thought was to wait until the fiance's kids were here, because they would enjoy seeing her discover her toys for the first time, as well. But due to waiting, I missed the opportunity. Granted, I didn't know--there was no reason to suspect that this was coming--but a lesson learned, none-the-less. Yes, my pets have always been my children--I have a very strong maternal instinct and have always needed to be surrounded by my babies; mine just happen to come in little fur suits.  And no matter how many times I go through this, the love each one brings ALWAYS outweighs the heartbreak. It just makes me miss the days of ferrets, ferrets everywhere--only having two has been hard. I really miss the days of being a shelter mom and having ferrets galore...